I know I haven't wrote in awhile, but I have a good excuse.
Last night was bad. Madeleine woke up at 12:00 so I fed her, and then the long night begun she did not want me to sit down or when I thought she was asleep she would instantly wake up when I laid her down in he bed or next to me. So I walked around the house for 2 hours. I finally went to bed at 2:00 and at 3:00 Isabella woke up. I'm not going to go into the rest of night or early morning for that matter. These sleepless night aren't really helping my sanity. I feel so bad at times for Isabella. I'm more short with her. Kelly I don't know how you did it, I guess you just did what I'm doing and just did it. I feel like a bad mom at times because I'll get so frustrated with Isabella when really all she wants is more attention and play time with me. It's not until I'm resting my head on the pillow at night that I think about that story I read, "I kiss the hands that open the gates of heaven for me." I think I'll tattoo it to my own hand so I'll remember, along with "No more sugar!" Parker noticed yesterday that some one has been dipping into his candy, oops.
I must be more positive, I must be more thankful to have such beautiful funny children, and thankful to even bear children. Thankful my husbands cooks dinner every night.
Must go baby crying.
1 comment:
I feel for you, I really do!!! I think I might mail you my copy of "The Baby Whisperer". Not that I used it, but I kind of wish I did. It just seems like it would work. (I did attachment parenting with John and thought since I did it with him I should do it with Finn, but now we're thinking we'll do the baby whisperer thing for the next one) So maybe, in all that free time you have, you can look at it.
I hope emotionally you are doing ok. My PPD was very rough after Finn. I hope you feel like you can ask people for help. If the girls are being this bad at night you've gotta be a zombie by day - maybe your mom could help you by doing your laundry a couple times a week. Can Tonya take the kids and just let you nap? Since you have family around, I hope they know how much you need their help. I don't know... gimme a call if you need to vent.
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